where do i belong?

feeling a bit lost in the end of the year...have i not found a group of people i can hang out with til late at night? that i can feel comfortable listening to what they say or things they do?

where do i belong in this world? or should i belong to anyone or group?

i feel out of place....there isnt anyone i can be with that would make me feel that i am loved....i've made my choice but it seems like mayb i've made the wrong one.

nothing seems the way it is...where am i heading next? is there anyone who would like my company?

everyone needs love...and i do too...more than they think....

today

today is great...really saw God move in the exam. i was praying to get the calculation questions that i studied and He really did gave me!

all praise to Him!!!

i am begining to accept the fact of them together. it's hard but well, time heals. who ask me in the first place to be walking in disobedience.

honestly, it is scaring me to see my nightmare coming true. but i believe it's inevitable. if the girl wasnt her, it could have been another person.

so, God will warn you before hand..and it takes our own decision whether or not to step out of it or continue and face the consequences later.

thank you, Lord

Psalm 119:105-112

105 Your word is a lamp to my feet
and a light for my path.

106 I have taken an oath and confirmed it,
that I will follow your righteous laws.

107 I have suffered much;
preserve my life, O LORD, according to your word.

108 Accept, O LORD, the willing praise of my mouth,
and teach me your laws.

109 Though I constantly take my life in my hands,
I will not forget your law.

110 The wicked have set a snare for me,
but I have not strayed from your precepts.

111 Your statutes are my heritage forever;
they are the joy of my heart.

112 My heart is set on keeping your decrees
to the very end.

moving on

wow...life isnt easy when you are reminded of your past each day.

my past? well, just one part of it that i regretted the most! the consequences i am reaping even til this day. consequences of disobedience.

from my heart, i want to wish them happiness but when i do, it feels i am rubbing salt into my own wound. a wound that is healing but each time i sees something, it becomes deeper....and each time it begins to heal, something would happen that would open up the wound again.

ever feel that way?

well, that is what sin will do.

but in christ, there is freedom. in the Spirit, there is liberty!! praise God for His grace each day to face the day, to face them...

a lost love

she has fallen in love with him
a devil in disguise

she has given her heart to him
and he tore and broke it into pieces

she has loved him with all her heart
and he loved another

she is now broken
but he is whole

a prayer

my heart is racing fast...i feel i am lost......burried in the pile of things that i have to do....a load of responsiblities to carry....

lord, give me strength!! you said in your words - come to you those who are burdened and heavy hearted and you will give rest! i come to you lord, renew my strength and give me a refreshing start!!

another first time

jsut came back from the exam - i copied....but who knows about this?? oonly God!!! everyone will think i'm so good etc...but i copied....

i am feeling extremely guilty...but i cannot bear to fail again!!!

how can i expect miracle when i am playing around? what is faith called if i am trying to make things work when God is the one suppose to be doing everything?

i am disappointed in myself! and i know God is even more disappointed in me!!

sorry, lord! forgive me!

a first time for everything

this is my first time i had to resit for my exam, honestly, i am nervous....but u know what....i am looking to God this time..

i know i've learnt my lesson, not to look at other people and point fingers but to try my best and believe that God will bring me thru.

God, please guide me today and let this day bring glory to you!

Pilot

i am stranger in this world, saved by grace, purchased by the blood of Christ!

the journey of life is long and far but i want to make mine is live by faith!

so, yay! welcome to this journey of faith, and let us together walk down life's journey with faith in Him who loves us!

a secret

what is a secret....

once,a good friend told me, if you tell someone your deepest secret, then it's no longer a secret because it is bound to get out.

i have a secret. a secret so deep that i dont think i will ever have the guts to tell anyone.

well, at least God knows about it and I do know that I can trust HIM!

thank, Lord! you are the only one i can trust! I love you!