we were walking out of the lift when we saw AP. We said hi but it seems that he didnt saw us. Us as in, me, lawrence, ame, jaswine and jack. I was kind of disappointed tho. Was it because I didnt dress nice? or my hair was messy? nevermind, i was coming back to the room, at least i made myself go for interns meeting....
then as i was walking out of the door, i heard something, 'ame, u'll be under michelle from next week'. An arrow straight to my heart. At first it missed then i heard it another time, then it hit straight. Why didnt he tell me? Why tell her first?
Am i doing something wrong? am i meeting less often? sharing less powerfully? is that why it has to be changed??? middle of the semester! what did i do wrong? could i have been a bad influence to ame?
i dont know if i should be angry, of course not but honestly, my heart is wounded. they could have at least let me know. i was in front of him, and he could at least told us together. i wouldnt have mind. it was behind my back...just as i was walking out of the door. did he forget i was ame's shepherd??
i am very hurt...but forgive, look at the bright side, i have less one meeting to go to, less one discipleship to prepare for, less one responsiblity! huahahahahah!!!!
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