a broken heart, healed

we were walking out of the lift when we saw AP. We said hi but it seems that he didnt saw us. Us as in, me, lawrence, ame, jaswine and jack. I was kind of disappointed tho. Was it because I didnt dress nice? or my hair was messy? nevermind, i was coming back to the room, at least i made myself go for interns meeting....

then as i was walking out of the door, i heard something, 'ame, u'll be under michelle from next week'. An arrow straight to my heart. At first it missed then i heard it another time, then it hit straight. Why didnt he tell me? Why tell her first?

Am i doing something wrong? am i meeting less often? sharing less powerfully? is that why it has to be changed??? middle of the semester! what did i do wrong? could i have been a bad influence to ame?

i dont know if i should be angry, of course not but honestly, my heart is wounded. they could have at least let me know. i was in front of him, and he could at least told us together. i wouldnt have mind. it was behind my back...just as i was walking out of the door. did he forget i was ame's shepherd??

i am very hurt...but forgive, look at the bright side, i have less one meeting to go to, less one discipleship to prepare for, less one responsiblity! huahahahahah!!!!

going home

another 10 weeks and i'll be heading home for summer break! it's unfair that my university has only 2 months break and actually it is less. and we had to do summer practise. It's totally absurb! Summer break is supposed to be a time of relaxing, not work! And also time spent with family and friendss.

I cant wait to meet Scooby and HeiGou! I wonder if they stil remembers me. I have a feeling my summer break is going to be really pack. Lots of family members coming back to visit us and it's really a great opportunity for quality family time.

sleepy

went to bed late last night but my whole sleep, i have no idea what i dreamt of. it was all mixed up! right now, i'm feeling very tired...actually sleepy! i really want to be able to sleep til i can no longer sleep, then wake up! ahaha..

need to study for class now. Myoma. Something new yet not as easy as one thinks. Need to prepare for class. And also to question patient. Oh man...our teacher, Dr. Konoplya, will be our teacher for Gynaecology for this semester. Very young, just about 28 years old or maybe 27 or 29.

anyway, i've got to cook breakfast now. but i am hesistating, should i make instant noodle? or corn flakes?

Father, i commit this day onto you, bless this day and let me see more of you today! in Jesus name I pray, Amen

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back

he's back.
he looks skinnier than when he left.

i dont know what to say...sometimes, without words is a way of comfort! Seriously, i am not good with these kind of things. the first time i have to face this was in form 4, Jiun's dad left to be with God. And I learn to be there for her, to support and just lend a hand whenever she needs it. That is what friends are supposed to be!

May God gives him the strength to face each day!

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daily report

argh, she's acting so wierd again! i really feel like i should confront her! argh!

anyway, other than that, need to study about renal failure and pyelonephritis. kinda tired sutdying..this week has been a very heavy week. time passes so fast. tmr is friday! i dont know how to make the time slow down!!!

he's coming back this weekend. hope things dont change....