God, without you, I cant have the peace.
my heart is aching now, it's so in pain, help me, Lord!
why am i feeling this? why?!?! I'm sorry, Lord, I'm sorry! Teach me Holy Spirit, what to do...
Lord, into your hands I commit all these burdens. Give me Your rest as You promised in Your words! In Jesus' name, Amen.
Friday 28 November 2008
Sunday 16 November 2008
dried
i'm dry...spiritually, physically, mentally.
it's not because of the weather, it's not because of the time of the month or is it because of people's attitude...
deep down, it's my fault....i'm to be blamed...
could it be because i'm really tired or because i want to run away??
Lord, help me in this time...I need your love and grace to move on.
it's not because of the weather, it's not because of the time of the month or is it because of people's attitude...
deep down, it's my fault....i'm to be blamed...
could it be because i'm really tired or because i want to run away??
Lord, help me in this time...I need your love and grace to move on.
Thursday 13 November 2008
MIGHTY IS THE POWER OF THE CROSS
by Chris Tomlin
What can take a dying man and raise him up to life again?
What can heal a wounded soul?
What can make us white as snow?
What can fill the emptiness?
What can mend our brokenness?
Brokenness
[Chorus:]
Mighty, awesome, wonderful
Is the holy cross
Where the Lamb laid down His life
To lift us from the fall
Mighty is the power of the cross
What restores our faith in God?
What reveals the Father's love?
What can lead the wayward home?
What can melt a heart of stone?
What can free the guilty ones
What can save and overcome?
Overcome
[Chorus]
It's a miracle to me [2x]
And It's still a mystery [2x]
It's a miracle to me
The power of God
For those who believe
Mighty, awesome, wonderful
Is the holy cross
Where the Lamb laid down His life
To lift us from the fall
Mighty is .......
Mighty is.......
Mighty is the power of the cross
Thank You for the cross [2x]
Love the cross [2x]
So Powerful...... ohhhhh yeahhh
What can take a dying man?
And raise him up to life again?
Worship You Jesus
By your wounds we are healed
By your wounds we are saved
Mighty is the power of the cross [2x]
Thank You Jesus for the Holy cross
What can take a dying man and raise him up to life again?
What can heal a wounded soul?
What can make us white as snow?
What can fill the emptiness?
What can mend our brokenness?
Brokenness
[Chorus:]
Mighty, awesome, wonderful
Is the holy cross
Where the Lamb laid down His life
To lift us from the fall
Mighty is the power of the cross
What restores our faith in God?
What reveals the Father's love?
What can lead the wayward home?
What can melt a heart of stone?
What can free the guilty ones
What can save and overcome?
Overcome
[Chorus]
It's a miracle to me [2x]
And It's still a mystery [2x]
It's a miracle to me
The power of God
For those who believe
Mighty, awesome, wonderful
Is the holy cross
Where the Lamb laid down His life
To lift us from the fall
Mighty is .......
Mighty is.......
Mighty is the power of the cross
Thank You for the cross [2x]
Love the cross [2x]
So Powerful...... ohhhhh yeahhh
What can take a dying man?
And raise him up to life again?
Worship You Jesus
By your wounds we are healed
By your wounds we are saved
Mighty is the power of the cross [2x]
Thank You Jesus for the Holy cross
Saturday 8 November 2008
trapped
i was trapped in my sleep...couldnt wake up, couldnt move and couldnt speak. It was a dream that I felt so real. Thinking aboutit, I am feeling a bit scared...right now, my head is turning, hypoxic I supposed. A few breath of fresh air will help!
Hence, I'll be walking to church later.
Hence, I'll be walking to church later.
The Privilage of Prayer part II
6. Does prayer change the mind of God?
No, it does not. Prayer is not overcoming God's reluctance. Prayer is laying hold of God's will. God is a changeless God (Malachi 3:6; James 1:17). But God will do things when we pray that He will not do if we don't pray (James 4:2). Prayer effects what God does, but does not change Him.
7. What do we do if our prayers are not answered?
Persist - There is a time to keep praying. Daniel prayed for three solid weeks about a matter before God sent an answer (Daniel 10; Luke 18:1). Desist - There's a time to quit praying. Paul prayed three times for God to remove a thorn in his flesh. God did not give Paul what he asked, but God gave Paul something better than he asked (2 Corinthians 12:8-9).
8. Should we expect miracles when we pray?
Never get in the habit of saying what God cannot do. You will find clusters of miracles in Bible times. They gave glory to God, validated His identify, and advanced His work. But these are not normative. God is still a God of might and miracles (Jeremiah 32:17). If God has a miracle for you, He'll give you miracle faith!
9. Can our prayers override the will of another person?
No, God has given man a free will (Revelation 22:17). If God were to force one person to be saved, He'd have to force all six billion people on earth. However, we can bind the powers of darkness and bring God's influence to people in prayer. God does not force salvation, but He frees people to be saved.
10. Does God have favorites whose prayer He hears?
God will hear your prayer just as quickly as He hears mine, Billy Graham's, or anybody else's (Psalm 65:2). However, there are certain people that if I have a prayer need, I'll go to. I know that they believe in prayer; therefore, I can ask them to pray. God has intimates, but He doesn't have favorites.
11. How can I know the will of God in prayer?
The prayer that gets to heaven is the prayer that starts in heaven. We just close the circuit. The will of God is what you would want if you knew everything from God's viewpoint. The key is to abide in Christ. If you abide in Him (John 15:7), you will find that God will guide and direct your prayers, and you will be praying in the will of God.
Don't wait until you have all of the answers before you pray. You don't have to understand electricity to turn on the lights. "What a privilege to carry everything to God in prayer.
No, it does not. Prayer is not overcoming God's reluctance. Prayer is laying hold of God's will. God is a changeless God (Malachi 3:6; James 1:17). But God will do things when we pray that He will not do if we don't pray (James 4:2). Prayer effects what God does, but does not change Him.
7. What do we do if our prayers are not answered?
Persist - There is a time to keep praying. Daniel prayed for three solid weeks about a matter before God sent an answer (Daniel 10; Luke 18:1). Desist - There's a time to quit praying. Paul prayed three times for God to remove a thorn in his flesh. God did not give Paul what he asked, but God gave Paul something better than he asked (2 Corinthians 12:8-9).
8. Should we expect miracles when we pray?
Never get in the habit of saying what God cannot do. You will find clusters of miracles in Bible times. They gave glory to God, validated His identify, and advanced His work. But these are not normative. God is still a God of might and miracles (Jeremiah 32:17). If God has a miracle for you, He'll give you miracle faith!
9. Can our prayers override the will of another person?
No, God has given man a free will (Revelation 22:17). If God were to force one person to be saved, He'd have to force all six billion people on earth. However, we can bind the powers of darkness and bring God's influence to people in prayer. God does not force salvation, but He frees people to be saved.
10. Does God have favorites whose prayer He hears?
God will hear your prayer just as quickly as He hears mine, Billy Graham's, or anybody else's (Psalm 65:2). However, there are certain people that if I have a prayer need, I'll go to. I know that they believe in prayer; therefore, I can ask them to pray. God has intimates, but He doesn't have favorites.
11. How can I know the will of God in prayer?
The prayer that gets to heaven is the prayer that starts in heaven. We just close the circuit. The will of God is what you would want if you knew everything from God's viewpoint. The key is to abide in Christ. If you abide in Him (John 15:7), you will find that God will guide and direct your prayers, and you will be praying in the will of God.
Don't wait until you have all of the answers before you pray. You don't have to understand electricity to turn on the lights. "What a privilege to carry everything to God in prayer.
Friday 7 November 2008
boot dreams
Do you know that your feet is also part of your body. It is as important as your hand, your face and your brain. Any part of the body has the same importance so does the feet. A few ways to take care of your foot is wearing the right type of boots when you are working. It will be a disaster if you wear something that is not suitable. A good work boots depends on how you choose it according to your job requirement, the condition of your feet and also the weather you are in.
Why not look into Work Boots USA to get yourself a good pair of working boots to protect your feet .
Why not look into Work Boots USA to get yourself a good pair of working boots to protect your feet .
Sunday 2 November 2008
The Privilege of Prayer part 1
"Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.”
Philippians 4:6
Prayer is our greatest Christian privilege and our greatest Christian failure. Now there are some valid questions concerning prayer. In my study I've tried to think through some of these and I want to give you some brief insights.
1. Why should we pray when God already knows our needs?
We do not pray to impress or inform God, but to invite Him. We pray to fellowship with God, so He can develop and grow us, and because we depend on Him.
2. For what is it proper to pray?
There is nothing in life that is outside the reach of prayer. If it concerns you, it concerns God. We sometimes try to divide life into secular and sacred. We'll pray about the sacred parts but handle the secular parts ourselves. Pray for everything.
3. Does God hear the prayers of the unsaved?
Cornelius was an unsaved man, but God was aware of his prayer as told in Acts 10. God can hear the prayer of an unsaved person, but we, who are His children, have been given so much more - His promises found in His Word.
4. Why should we pray in the name of Jesus?
God promises that He will give us what we ask for when we pray in the name of Jesus (John 14:13-14). When asking in Jesus' name, first consider:
o His Approval - Does Jesus approve this thing?
o His Authorization - Is it something He has authorized?
o His Acclaim - Is it for His glory?
5. Does God always give us what we ask?
No, and thank God! Sometimes we ask God for the wrong things (Numbers 11:11-15; Matthew 20:20-22). Other times our prayer perhaps is not answered because there's sin in our lives (Isaiah 59:2; Psalm 66:18).
Philippians 4:6
Prayer is our greatest Christian privilege and our greatest Christian failure. Now there are some valid questions concerning prayer. In my study I've tried to think through some of these and I want to give you some brief insights.
1. Why should we pray when God already knows our needs?
We do not pray to impress or inform God, but to invite Him. We pray to fellowship with God, so He can develop and grow us, and because we depend on Him.
2. For what is it proper to pray?
There is nothing in life that is outside the reach of prayer. If it concerns you, it concerns God. We sometimes try to divide life into secular and sacred. We'll pray about the sacred parts but handle the secular parts ourselves. Pray for everything.
3. Does God hear the prayers of the unsaved?
Cornelius was an unsaved man, but God was aware of his prayer as told in Acts 10. God can hear the prayer of an unsaved person, but we, who are His children, have been given so much more - His promises found in His Word.
4. Why should we pray in the name of Jesus?
God promises that He will give us what we ask for when we pray in the name of Jesus (John 14:13-14). When asking in Jesus' name, first consider:
o His Approval - Does Jesus approve this thing?
o His Authorization - Is it something He has authorized?
o His Acclaim - Is it for His glory?
5. Does God always give us what we ask?
No, and thank God! Sometimes we ask God for the wrong things (Numbers 11:11-15; Matthew 20:20-22). Other times our prayer perhaps is not answered because there's sin in our lives (Isaiah 59:2; Psalm 66:18).
Wednesday 29 October 2008
fragile!
people are so fragile.
they only believe what they see. and the worst is, people are not who they potray most of the time. how they think of you, being just a chess piece in their game, using you, stepping on you....you just have no idea what are going throught their mind and heart.
it is easy to believe and often, only when it stings that we start to retaliate.
do we still believe that people are good in their hearts and that they are who they are just because of the circumstances? is there really good in those that are bad?
it's something to ponder on..
they only believe what they see. and the worst is, people are not who they potray most of the time. how they think of you, being just a chess piece in their game, using you, stepping on you....you just have no idea what are going throught their mind and heart.
it is easy to believe and often, only when it stings that we start to retaliate.
do we still believe that people are good in their hearts and that they are who they are just because of the circumstances? is there really good in those that are bad?
it's something to ponder on..
Sunday 19 October 2008
heartache
i'm writing things about Confession...an important tool in our christian walk. Our mouth speaks what our heart is full of!
Even though we can joke around, and play with words but God is taking serious every words we speak because what we speak is putting things to work. God spoke the world into exisitance...and with His very word formed the world. Our words carries the same weight. We can break bondages, and cast out demons, heal the sick and bring faith into our lives. As in Romans writes- faith comes from hearing and hearing the word of God.
Amen!!
thank you Lord!
Even though we can joke around, and play with words but God is taking serious every words we speak because what we speak is putting things to work. God spoke the world into exisitance...and with His very word formed the world. Our words carries the same weight. We can break bondages, and cast out demons, heal the sick and bring faith into our lives. As in Romans writes- faith comes from hearing and hearing the word of God.
Amen!!
thank you Lord!
Tuesday 14 October 2008
sorry
Sorry Miss N! =(
i know i've hurt your feelings with the careless words that came from my heart.
no reason for me to be acting the way i did.
i am sorry!
i know i've hurt your feelings with the careless words that came from my heart.
no reason for me to be acting the way i did.
i am sorry!
Wednesday 8 October 2008
invitation
i've invited a new writer to this blog as i can't be here all the time writing. i'm a bit busy with assignments and datelines to catch so hopefully all of you will enjoy some great times with the new writer!
Tuesday 30 September 2008
Glory Culture
A great page by WCCI - Word of Christ Church International, associate pastors - Nic and Ben. It's the Glory Culture. This page compiles the sermon and sharing by annointed people of God.
Let us unite in one accord under the banner of Christ and march forward with a unified front in preaching and living Jesus proud. With one voice and one passion, we choose to live, to preach, worship and praise God loud and showcase His glory proud.
Step into the Glory Culture today, know what we have in Christ and the promises in the Word!
Let us unite in one accord under the banner of Christ and march forward with a unified front in preaching and living Jesus proud. With one voice and one passion, we choose to live, to preach, worship and praise God loud and showcase His glory proud.
Step into the Glory Culture today, know what we have in Christ and the promises in the Word!
Sunday 28 September 2008
actions
I recall my childhood days, when I love to play this particular action game called Time Commando. It's one of the latest game at the time and I must admit, not the easiest to play. Inside the characters will be dressed with 511 tactical items to be ready for combat. It interest me how important dressing for combat is, without the right shirt or pants, it'll delay your speed and your hit. I believe in the reality is the same. Your clothing can either slow you down or gives you an extra boost to your speed! Therefore, it is important to choose with care and detail what to wear for certain occasion. The way you dress will either brings the best out of you or the other way round.
Monday 15 September 2008
federeresque
What's the latest news on Roger Federer? Well, he has just won his 13th grand slam title in the US Open 2008. Proving to his fans, the press and other fellow players that he is still the best! We can see in his final match in the US Open, Federer has regained his momentum, playing better than ever, getting back his tempo and playing as graceful as a swan but attacks as fierce as a tiger.
Up next is Stockholm Master Series on October 6, following that will be Mutua Madrilena Masters Madrid on October 13th, Davidoff Swiss Indoors on 20th, followed by BNP Paribas Masters on the 27th in the same month. A very tight schedule there but he'll have a break of a couple of days before the Tennis Masters Cup in Shanghai on the 9th of Novembter.
Friday 15 August 2008
Video Making
Do you face the moment when you want to convert your mp3 into a wav file to fit into your player. Or vice versa? But you can’t seem to convert it because the software you have does not have this feature? How about converting a video to fit into your PDA and it takes forever? Or the time when you are given an assignment to make a video for class presentation but you cant seem to find a video editing tool? It does happen to you, doesn’t it? Well, same goes to me!! All I remember is the frustration when I can’t finish the work. But thanks to Blaze Media Pro, a software that comes with great features. It is all-in-one multimedia application that offers conversion, ripping, editing, recording, burning, playback, and much more. What more can you ask for? Now you can do video editing easily with it’s tools, or convert convert AVI to MPG . Everything will be easier with the new Blaze Media Pro software!
phelps on the way to 8 gold medals
Phelps' on the way to getting 8 gold medals. He has just won his 6th gold medal in the 200 meter individual medley defeating his teamate Ryan Lochte. Phelps at the same time set a new World Record of 1:54:23, breaking his own record that was set a month ago.
US swimmers Michael Phelps (R) and Ryan Lochte react after the men's 200m individual medley swimming final at the National Aquatics Center during the 2008 Beijing Olympic Games in Beijing on August 15, 2008. Michael Phelps of the US set a new world record in the men's 200 metres individual medley with a time of one minute 54.23 seconds in the final at the Beijing Olympics. Lochte placed third. AFP PHOTO / FRANCOIS-XAVIER MARIT (Photo credit should read FRANCOIS-XAVIER MARIT/AFP/Getty Images)
US swimmers Michael Phelps (R) and Ryan Lochte react after the men's 200m individual medley swimming final at the National Aquatics Center during the 2008 Beijing Olympic Games in Beijing on August 15, 2008. Michael Phelps of the US set a new world record in the men's 200 metres individual medley with a time of one minute 54.23 seconds in the final at the Beijing Olympics. Lochte placed third. AFP PHOTO / FRANCOIS-XAVIER MARIT (Photo credit should read FRANCOIS-XAVIER MARIT/AFP/Getty Images)
Thursday 10 July 2008
beautiful new frames
Now zennioptical.com offers wide selection of frames, with single vision lens, sunsensor (potochromic)lens, tinted suglasses lens, bifocal lens and progressive lens. It comes with great offers and low price where everyone can wear in style and not be left behind in the fast moving fashion of frames! Now without the middlemen, you can be sure you will get your frames with great prices!
Time to move forward and change a new look today!
Time to move forward and change a new look today!
Roger's Cup
Roger's cup which is going to be held on July 26th till Aug 3. Location is in Toronto, Canada. Roger cup is one of the 12 Master Cups to be played and won by the top tennis players! I cant wait for it to start and see Federer back in action!
frames shopping
Summer time is here which means new style and new glasses! For me, I am getting a new glasses. It is not because I needed a new one, it's because I want to be in style. But what do I want? What style am I looking for? zennioptical.com offers great range of product to select from. Honestly speaking, I am still doubting which style am I looking for..
full frame?
pink - half frame?
oval frame?
full frame?
pink - half frame?
oval frame?
Tuesday 8 July 2008
wimbledon 2008
Wimbledon 2008 final was one of the greatest game ever. It is definitely a must watch! If you did not watch it, please grab a chance to watch this great game! It's too bad that Federer did not win his 6th Wimbledon but there is still another US Open coming up in Aug. And there is also Beijing Olympics and Roger Master Cup in the next few weeks! So, there is still lots of action to be seen by Fed!!
Saturday 5 July 2008
childhood dream
I can say we are pretty close with all my cousins. There are 13 of us and we grew up playing together, watching movies together and so many things. We love acting out the cartoons we watch. One of it is Captain planet and Power Rangers. It is so funny to remember back the things we do when we were young.
Now I remember clearly that one of it is when we watch police movies or series. We tend to act out the roles and there will be police women and robbers. If only we have police gears at that time like work boots or vest, it would make everything more real and fun.
I would consider that childhood memories are the series of events that makes who you are today. It is then that you are purely you. As we grow up, rationalization starts to sip in and logical thinking begins to develop. We no longer dare to dream big because dreams hardly come true. Everything becomes so material and people changes as they grow.
I really want all of us never to stop dreaming because dreams bring us to places where our mind can't go!
Now I remember clearly that one of it is when we watch police movies or series. We tend to act out the roles and there will be police women and robbers. If only we have police gears at that time like work boots or vest, it would make everything more real and fun.
I would consider that childhood memories are the series of events that makes who you are today. It is then that you are purely you. As we grow up, rationalization starts to sip in and logical thinking begins to develop. We no longer dare to dream big because dreams hardly come true. Everything becomes so material and people changes as they grow.
I really want all of us never to stop dreaming because dreams bring us to places where our mind can't go!
Tuesday 1 July 2008
bioterm
Went shopping with sisters and ended up spending more than $150 on Bioterm facial products. It happened they were doing face analyzing and invited us to do an analyze on our face condition. Guess what, I am super dehydrated. My dehydration is only 37%. Totally below the RED line. So, the lady introduced me several products and I've been using it for 2 days. I saw the difference right after that. Not that it's super silky and hydrated, I just feel that it is softer and lighter. Some people might say it's just pyschological, everything is in the mind.
Well, let the time prove it!
Well, let the time prove it!
Sunday 15 June 2008
Insurance
I was watching a series about swindlers. It was superb how now a days, swindling is so easy because people are greedy and they only think about short methods to earn more money. There are so many cases of small business barely survivin that are approaced by swindlers and were cheated. It reminded me of the importance of getting a Small Business Health Insurance if ever you are in a business. It doest not matter how much you can invest in a insurance. Insurance is there where you can fall back on when something happens to your life or your business.
Friday 13 June 2008
back online
it has been nearly 2 weeks i didnt update...it's all because of the exams! i feel like every stopped the way it used to be and my whole life was about studying! it's fun in some part, but to some people it's a waste of time....to me? it's totally fun! when you study, and after the exam, the feeling of satisfaction, nothing can replace that, no one can tell you that you didnt try hard enough because you know you did and you've put in everything you could have!
one more paper to go, gambate to me!
one more paper to go, gambate to me!
Tuesday 3 June 2008
fashioned by police gear
Even though police gear seems to be always left out in the fashion industry, but not anymore. Now there are new tactical gear that you can find online. To some, they might not be in the force but simply just love the fashion of a police or army person. It can be something very personal and yet it can be as openly as it it. I have known people who rather be wearing tactical wears because they are comfortable and style. Most people might not agree but you will never know it until u personally try it on! It comes with pants, vest and even jackets that you can wear all season. Mix and match and be the first to set out the new road of police wear fashion!
Friday 30 May 2008
moment from the past
someone suddenly mentioned about something..ahaha...a gift i once gave him. oh dear!!
how did he found out!! anyway, i cant say i wanted to hide the fact but it has been years and i guess i just dont like to dig out the past.
to me it may seem like because it's not a pleasant thing but
the fact is i believe the past is the past, no need to remember it.
exam time...so, hiatus is ON!!
how did he found out!! anyway, i cant say i wanted to hide the fact but it has been years and i guess i just dont like to dig out the past.
to me it may seem like because it's not a pleasant thing but
the fact is i believe the past is the past, no need to remember it.
exam time...so, hiatus is ON!!
Thursday 15 May 2008
epidemiology
I am starting Epidemiology class tomorrow. So, tonight has been rather relaxing for me. I watched a couple of movie yesterday and today...it was great. Sometimes, it's not totally good to watch too much series or movies.
What you see, hear and read always gets into your thought. And what you think all the time, gets into your heart and you believe it. And out of the heart, the mouth speaks. So, got to be real careful of the things that you watch and read or even listens too.
Tomorrow, some of my groupmates are going off for inter-university games. It was 3 years ago, during one of these games that I got my heart broken. It stil hurts even though the wound has already healed. Funny how I can hold on to stupid things in life....I keep telling myself, it's time to move on...and now, I can say, 100% of me is moving on. I dont want to live in the past because it hurts too much. Nobody can understand how much it hurts and how bad it had damaged me. Only God knows!
What you see, hear and read always gets into your thought. And what you think all the time, gets into your heart and you believe it. And out of the heart, the mouth speaks. So, got to be real careful of the things that you watch and read or even listens too.
Tomorrow, some of my groupmates are going off for inter-university games. It was 3 years ago, during one of these games that I got my heart broken. It stil hurts even though the wound has already healed. Funny how I can hold on to stupid things in life....I keep telling myself, it's time to move on...and now, I can say, 100% of me is moving on. I dont want to live in the past because it hurts too much. Nobody can understand how much it hurts and how bad it had damaged me. Only God knows!
cloudy
suddenly i realised, i've been trying to escape life. trying to avoid facing reality...and i do admit, i have been living in fantasy world lately....for the couple of weeks. it hurts so much to face the real life...aha...am i a weakling? am i that weak??? i wonder...
i need to have courage, to be strong...God, let me begin once again, let me start once more!
i need to have courage, to be strong...God, let me begin once again, let me start once more!
Wednesday 14 May 2008
next stop
Everyone is busy planning their summer trips. Some plans to drive to other cities while another plans to fly to their vacation spot. One of my friend wants to visit new cities while others want to return to the cities they’ve been too previously. As for me, I want new adventure. I want to go to places I have not seen. The world is so big and most of the time I feel that I am running out of time to visit every place. I don’t want to leave this world without going to every great city. Last holiday break, I manage to grab some time off and went off to Atlanta for a couple of days. Things to do in Atlanta has turned out to be more than I’ve expected. It begins with Stone Mountain Park Adventure and the next day, Segway Day Tour of Atlanta. It was fantastic and I had one of the best time I’ve ever had in years! The sightseeing tours that I signed up for were fantastic. I manage to cover the whole city in just a couple of days and I am sure I didn’t miss any important spots!
This coming summer, I might just take a week of and go to another city. This time it might be Boston. The Things to do in Boston must be thrilling as my girlfriends has already have lots of things lined up for us to do and visit!
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This coming summer, I might just take a week of and go to another city. This time it might be Boston. The Things to do in Boston must be thrilling as my girlfriends has already have lots of things lined up for us to do and visit!
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Friday 9 May 2008
pancakes
I just made pancakes for myself and my roomate. The batter was a bit too much. At least this time I did it because I wanted to make, not because I have someone in mind and wanted to make for him or them.
It's been a while since I cook for myself. Often I would remember the times I would cook for someone. It's always a joy to cook for another person. Even though the food might not be as delicious but the thought, the love and effort put in the cooking is satisfying.
I remember when I stop making meals for him. It was when a good friend said something that gave me a strong slap onto my face...she said why are you cooking for him and he's not doing anything for you? isnt this very unfair? Only then I realised, she was right, it was all me giving and giving...at times I feel disgusted because I would feel that I am taken advantage off. My good intention is being riped off by greed.
It's been a while since I cook for myself. Often I would remember the times I would cook for someone. It's always a joy to cook for another person. Even though the food might not be as delicious but the thought, the love and effort put in the cooking is satisfying.
I remember when I stop making meals for him. It was when a good friend said something that gave me a strong slap onto my face...she said why are you cooking for him and he's not doing anything for you? isnt this very unfair? Only then I realised, she was right, it was all me giving and giving...at times I feel disgusted because I would feel that I am taken advantage off. My good intention is being riped off by greed.
Wednesday 7 May 2008
i stil remember
today, i went for the replacement class because i missed the class last semester. there was a few students doing because they had missed their class. i was the second batch to enter. we were given questions to do and later the teacher came and checked out papers. she asked a few questions to a few. there was this guy that was before me, he was good looking, i must admit. the ring he was wearing, superly attractive. maybe that was what made him so cool. once he spoke, it was so different. as if he was a child speaking. from the outward, you can never guess how kiddy he sounded, cute and cuddly. as he was answering the questions from the teacher, he was very soft spoken and gentle.
suddenly, it reminded me of someone that i once knew. someone from school, years ago. this guy suddenly began to look and sound even more like my old friend. well, i wouldn't call him my friend because we rarely speak when we were in school, just smile when we meet. honestly and boldly i can confess that i really had a crush on him. and it was a daring crush. i would look at him, smile, notice him...but there was a distance between us. it was just 'hi' and never more than that. like this guy in the replacement class, he was gentle, polite, soft spoken and yet very cool in his appearance.
after i graduated from high school, i never saw him, ever! i tried looking for him in facebook or friendster, cant find. it has been 5 years and there are times when i am back at home during summer, i wish i could bump into him.....our relationship, a very special friendship, never really started off right and didnt end...i am not satisfied, i want to meet him again!
suddenly, it reminded me of someone that i once knew. someone from school, years ago. this guy suddenly began to look and sound even more like my old friend. well, i wouldn't call him my friend because we rarely speak when we were in school, just smile when we meet. honestly and boldly i can confess that i really had a crush on him. and it was a daring crush. i would look at him, smile, notice him...but there was a distance between us. it was just 'hi' and never more than that. like this guy in the replacement class, he was gentle, polite, soft spoken and yet very cool in his appearance.
after i graduated from high school, i never saw him, ever! i tried looking for him in facebook or friendster, cant find. it has been 5 years and there are times when i am back at home during summer, i wish i could bump into him.....our relationship, a very special friendship, never really started off right and didnt end...i am not satisfied, i want to meet him again!
new social spark
A good news to all those who would like to join the new SocialSpark from IZEA, it is now open for public. The new SocialSpark is made up of communities where you can add your friends, view the blog post that others has written and know their updates from their profile. You do not even need to search for their blogs on the net. If the post that they have written is something you are interested, you can click to read it. It is a also a community where bloggers can meet with advertisers, discussing about their advertisement and also posts. Back to the basic, the whole idea is about making a community of bloggers and advertisers.
Besides being able to write posts or the advertisers, you have a chance to meet up with fellow bloggers, share writing techniques which can improve your skills. You can also give points to a fellow blogger.
You too can be an advertiser if you have the heart to it. All you need is to create an account as an advertiser.
I have met a new friend here, Lynnx01. She’s a medical student and her writings is really attracting me as she writes not only on medical issues but about sports and life. I can see a great future in her. And there are many more profiles that you can read about and get to know them better from their blogs. You can message them and a new friendship will blossom!
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You too can be an advertiser if you have the heart to it. All you need is to create an account as an advertiser.
I have met a new friend here, Lynnx01. She’s a medical student and her writings is really attracting me as she writes not only on medical issues but about sports and life. I can see a great future in her. And there are many more profiles that you can read about and get to know them better from their blogs. You can message them and a new friendship will blossom!
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Attitude Determines Altitude
2 men were asked to go for the same overseas assignment. One was asked to row a boat across the ocean to reach the destination, the other one was given a plane ticket ride there. 2 men reached there and both completed their assigments though one took a longer time. The one who took the plane finished his assignment with a smile and an attitude that goes "Great..that was easy, I can do that again!" The other guy who had to row the boat finished the assignment grudgingly. "Why was I made to row the boat 30 days to finish a 3 minute job?! I'll never do this ever again!"
Tell me who has a better attitude? The man on the plane?? haha
If so then, "Altitude determines attitude".
Tell me who has a better attitude? The man on the plane?? haha
If so then, "Altitude determines attitude".
Tuesday 6 May 2008
hello!
We were just talking in class the other day about calling back home. We have been away from home for nearly 9 months. And guess what? Some of my group mates has not even called home once! Can you believe that? Family is the dearest people you have here. If they are not the ones you are calling, who can you call? To me, it is important that I talk to my mommy or daddy at least every day. It some people, it may seem like I am a baby but I believe strongly in good and firm family ties comes from your effort to show that you love and care for them.
If you are studying or even working far away from home, there are phone cards that you can use to call back. A new prepaid phone cards by avenue.com now gives you great offer when you call home. You can save up till 95% on your calls and it will definitely save your phone bills. All you need to do is go to the site and sign up. You can buy the phone cards according to your preference, the destination you are calling and even those with great offers. You can now enjoy calling your family or friends from other cities in the world with the lowest rate and it comes with great voice quality.
To get started, just check out the country code you are calling when you are using the call card. This is one of the best international calling cards available. No matter where you are, you can get one to call back home. It is delivered to you online and you can manage your account online. No need to wait for bills and letters in the mail. If you are having any problems connecting, you can check it out on the live chats. You no longer need to wait for your questions to be answered and it will just take minutes for you to solve any problem on the call cards.
If you are studying or even working far away from home, there are phone cards that you can use to call back. A new prepaid phone cards by avenue.com now gives you great offer when you call home. You can save up till 95% on your calls and it will definitely save your phone bills. All you need to do is go to the site and sign up. You can buy the phone cards according to your preference, the destination you are calling and even those with great offers. You can now enjoy calling your family or friends from other cities in the world with the lowest rate and it comes with great voice quality.
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rest
in my previous post about being confused, honestly i am stil. I feel very deceived that things has turned out this way. Loosing trust is the worst thing. And the guilt, it's unbearable!
Anyway, I've learnt a new thing, cardiorrhexis. It's the ruputre of the heart. After watching TMD, I really feel like going into cardiothoraco surgery. It's one of the harderst. The pressure and stress will really keep you going! Speaking of which, I need to go back to reading my notes, stil lots more to cover!
Anyway, I've learnt a new thing, cardiorrhexis. It's the ruputre of the heart. After watching TMD, I really feel like going into cardiothoraco surgery. It's one of the harderst. The pressure and stress will really keep you going! Speaking of which, I need to go back to reading my notes, stil lots more to cover!
stepping out from the old
there is a new way of eating oysters, which is the new Gulf oysters processing teachnology that will an alternative to a healthy and more safe when consuming raw oysters. This process includes 3 important stage. Firstly quick freezing, then low heat pasteurization and finally high hydrostatic pressure.
this help to reduce the risk of Vibrio vulnificus illness and gives you a better relieve when you choose to eat raw oysters.
this help to reduce the risk of Vibrio vulnificus illness and gives you a better relieve when you choose to eat raw oysters.
Friday 2 May 2008
God the author of peace
God is not the author of confusion but of peace.
Even in times of confusion, anger or in bad times, God is stil there to give peace. The peace that surpass all understanding and guards the heart.
Today, I've learnt, to surrender to God. Not to waste time grumbling and being angry at people or at myself, but jsut to let God handle it. Know that God is the author of peace.
^^
Even in times of confusion, anger or in bad times, God is stil there to give peace. The peace that surpass all understanding and guards the heart.
Today, I've learnt, to surrender to God. Not to waste time grumbling and being angry at people or at myself, but jsut to let God handle it. Know that God is the author of peace.
^^
doing the right thing
what is the right thing to do? i've lost track. Today, God just told me clearly that I should do the right thing! I really want to deny it but I cannot deny the voice of God in me.
What is the right thing to do? To do my summer practise in the hospital...something I wish I could escape. My summer is short enough and there isnt enough time for me to spend with my family, and now i have to be away from home? I dont want, from the bottom of my heart, I dont want to do.
But the voice of God is so clear - do the right thing!
^^
What is the right thing to do? To do my summer practise in the hospital...something I wish I could escape. My summer is short enough and there isnt enough time for me to spend with my family, and now i have to be away from home? I dont want, from the bottom of my heart, I dont want to do.
But the voice of God is so clear - do the right thing!
^^
Monday 28 April 2008
irresponsible
some poeple can be so irresponsible!!!! i cannot believe, even such a small thing as remembering to help submit ur team member name cannot be done, how can someone like that does great things?? it is not the first time submitting names to work together, it's like the 4th time and it has been 4 years. How selfish can one be, thinking of himself only.
I cannot believe, such a small thing, just asking the rest of the team members and submitting the name...even so, he can fail.
I am not sure if this is carelessness or revenge. What a 'small gas' person.
I really wonder, what leadership skill is there..if a small thing like this he can't even do properly, how can he do big things. Just taking care of a few people, only 2 persons, he failed to take care of their interest, how is he going to lead hundreds of people and care for their benefits!!
I cannot believe, such a small thing, just asking the rest of the team members and submitting the name...even so, he can fail.
I am not sure if this is carelessness or revenge. What a 'small gas' person.
I really wonder, what leadership skill is there..if a small thing like this he can't even do properly, how can he do big things. Just taking care of a few people, only 2 persons, he failed to take care of their interest, how is he going to lead hundreds of people and care for their benefits!!
Thursday 24 April 2008
=(
someone today said something, i know it was not what i thought it meant but i knew it right in my heart, that i should stop dreaming, accept the reality and not ever hope in the certain person ever again....actually, we should never put out hope in anyone because people are merely human. human fails!
there are times i really feel that maybe we could start over. i would love him anew...but things will never ever be the same....tat was just a dream. a dream that you will wake up from and honestly, i'm already awake from it.
i knew it 3 years ago....but i had been holding back and for the past year, i really felt a release...even tho there are times i feel very heartbroken..but who would understand what a fool i had made myself? i always will say that it was a painful experience. i dont think anyone would understand me or understand why i put myself through these time. i always hoped in him but like a saying goes, you cant clap with one hand.....
oh well, i am good now, 3 years, finally has set myself free. ^^
there are times i really feel that maybe we could start over. i would love him anew...but things will never ever be the same....tat was just a dream. a dream that you will wake up from and honestly, i'm already awake from it.
i knew it 3 years ago....but i had been holding back and for the past year, i really felt a release...even tho there are times i feel very heartbroken..but who would understand what a fool i had made myself? i always will say that it was a painful experience. i dont think anyone would understand me or understand why i put myself through these time. i always hoped in him but like a saying goes, you cant clap with one hand.....
oh well, i am good now, 3 years, finally has set myself free. ^^
Tuesday 22 April 2008
Tamaki Hiroshi + Ueno Juri in Bistro Smap
i cannot believe i went to watch this video!!! I love both tamaki hiroshi and Ueno Juri. Also lately I've known about Takuya Kimura. Icon of Japan. I cannot believe I am watching this. 36MB!!!
I was determined to wake up early in the morning to download the rest but my hands and feet just wouldn't move to the laptop. So I ended up sleeping! Well, maybe tonight!
Monday 21 April 2008
power of the word
the Word of God really has power!!!!! i really feel this is where I belong. in the house of God.....one day in the house of God is better than a thousand elsewhere. David said in his psalms.
I totally feel it...the house of God is where I belong!
people may be hypocrites, ppl may take me for granted, ppl may disappoint me and break my heart but as long as God is with me, it's enought.
I totally feel it...the house of God is where I belong!
people may be hypocrites, ppl may take me for granted, ppl may disappoint me and break my heart but as long as God is with me, it's enought.
Sunday 20 April 2008
blowing up
i need to finish this clinical pharmaco project and i am clueless right now. i feel that i am going to blow up anytime.
*breath in*breath out*
i am supressing myself...but i am unsure of what i am trying to surpress. my flesh? my desire? my emotion?
*breath in*breath out*
i am supressing myself...but i am unsure of what i am trying to surpress. my flesh? my desire? my emotion?
Saturday 19 April 2008
nodame cantabile
was watching nodame cantabile special edition in Europe. the main actor, tamaki hiroshi is so cute!!!! ahaha, it's been a while since i am infatuated...ahaha..the last time was yunho -uknow from TVXQ. well, one of the reasons i dont like dramas with cute guys because i might just fall head over heals for them!
just a few days ago, i was watching karei-naru Ichizoku. the main actor, takuya kimura, was super cute too but i am not as much infatuated as i am with tamaki hiroshi. i feel that i need to hide this feelings or else people will think i am crazy! ahahahah
note to myself : stop watching series!!!!
just a few days ago, i was watching karei-naru Ichizoku. the main actor, takuya kimura, was super cute too but i am not as much infatuated as i am with tamaki hiroshi. i feel that i need to hide this feelings or else people will think i am crazy! ahahahah
note to myself : stop watching series!!!!
Friday 18 April 2008
helping u
i really want to help you get everything setup....i really want to help you but i know you will never accept it and know no matter how much i do, it wouldn't change anything.
there are times when i feel so much to tell you that i am wiling to help you, do anything that you need me to....but have you ever appreciated everything that i do? i guess most of the time you feel i'm being too busy body instead of helping around.
it breaks my heart to remember everything that i did was in vain. but it was from my heart, willingly...
^^
there are times when i feel so much to tell you that i am wiling to help you, do anything that you need me to....but have you ever appreciated everything that i do? i guess most of the time you feel i'm being too busy body instead of helping around.
it breaks my heart to remember everything that i did was in vain. but it was from my heart, willingly...
^^
Wednesday 16 April 2008
the peace of God
when i was counting my money to pay for the internet, i realised i've lost the money that i put aside to pay to the bank. it's not a little amount because internet here is superly expensive. i searched and searched. I was so convinced that I threw it away as I remember that I had put it aside in an envelop. But I cant find it.
But the peace of God was there, I jsut know I will find it. After searching my drawers a million times, ok, maybe jsut 4 times, again and again til now everything is neatly arranged. I stil couldn't find it. So, i decided to bath and after coming out of the shower, I looked again but didnt find. Then I decided to arrange the photo frame and guess what? It's behind there all the time!!
praise God!!
But the peace of God was there, I jsut know I will find it. After searching my drawers a million times, ok, maybe jsut 4 times, again and again til now everything is neatly arranged. I stil couldn't find it. So, i decided to bath and after coming out of the shower, I looked again but didnt find. Then I decided to arrange the photo frame and guess what? It's behind there all the time!!
praise God!!
week
i was blew off again, yesterday! they actually have been planning something and didnt tell me. ok, now who is the leader? why didnt they give me the courtesy of at least knowning what is going on or what they are planing? maybe i cannot hear properly from God, maybe I am not where they are, but cant they at least let me know if there is something wrong and tell me how.
i really am thinking that i am learning all the bad qualities now. being late, cancelling meetings and being irresponsible. this is totally not me!
anyway, God, forgive me, forgive me!!
i really am thinking that i am learning all the bad qualities now. being late, cancelling meetings and being irresponsible. this is totally not me!
anyway, God, forgive me, forgive me!!
Sunday 13 April 2008
a broken heart, healed
we were walking out of the lift when we saw AP. We said hi but it seems that he didnt saw us. Us as in, me, lawrence, ame, jaswine and jack. I was kind of disappointed tho. Was it because I didnt dress nice? or my hair was messy? nevermind, i was coming back to the room, at least i made myself go for interns meeting....
then as i was walking out of the door, i heard something, 'ame, u'll be under michelle from next week'. An arrow straight to my heart. At first it missed then i heard it another time, then it hit straight. Why didnt he tell me? Why tell her first?
Am i doing something wrong? am i meeting less often? sharing less powerfully? is that why it has to be changed??? middle of the semester! what did i do wrong? could i have been a bad influence to ame?
i dont know if i should be angry, of course not but honestly, my heart is wounded. they could have at least let me know. i was in front of him, and he could at least told us together. i wouldnt have mind. it was behind my back...just as i was walking out of the door. did he forget i was ame's shepherd??
i am very hurt...but forgive, look at the bright side, i have less one meeting to go to, less one discipleship to prepare for, less one responsiblity! huahahahahah!!!!
then as i was walking out of the door, i heard something, 'ame, u'll be under michelle from next week'. An arrow straight to my heart. At first it missed then i heard it another time, then it hit straight. Why didnt he tell me? Why tell her first?
Am i doing something wrong? am i meeting less often? sharing less powerfully? is that why it has to be changed??? middle of the semester! what did i do wrong? could i have been a bad influence to ame?
i dont know if i should be angry, of course not but honestly, my heart is wounded. they could have at least let me know. i was in front of him, and he could at least told us together. i wouldnt have mind. it was behind my back...just as i was walking out of the door. did he forget i was ame's shepherd??
i am very hurt...but forgive, look at the bright side, i have less one meeting to go to, less one discipleship to prepare for, less one responsiblity! huahahahahah!!!!
going home
another 10 weeks and i'll be heading home for summer break! it's unfair that my university has only 2 months break and actually it is less. and we had to do summer practise. It's totally absurb! Summer break is supposed to be a time of relaxing, not work! And also time spent with family and friendss.
I cant wait to meet Scooby and HeiGou! I wonder if they stil remembers me. I have a feeling my summer break is going to be really pack. Lots of family members coming back to visit us and it's really a great opportunity for quality family time.
I cant wait to meet Scooby and HeiGou! I wonder if they stil remembers me. I have a feeling my summer break is going to be really pack. Lots of family members coming back to visit us and it's really a great opportunity for quality family time.
Monday 7 April 2008
sleepy
went to bed late last night but my whole sleep, i have no idea what i dreamt of. it was all mixed up! right now, i'm feeling very tired...actually sleepy! i really want to be able to sleep til i can no longer sleep, then wake up! ahaha..
need to study for class now. Myoma. Something new yet not as easy as one thinks. Need to prepare for class. And also to question patient. Oh man...our teacher, Dr. Konoplya, will be our teacher for Gynaecology for this semester. Very young, just about 28 years old or maybe 27 or 29.
anyway, i've got to cook breakfast now. but i am hesistating, should i make instant noodle? or corn flakes?
Father, i commit this day onto you, bless this day and let me see more of you today! in Jesus name I pray, Amen
need to study for class now. Myoma. Something new yet not as easy as one thinks. Need to prepare for class. And also to question patient. Oh man...our teacher, Dr. Konoplya, will be our teacher for Gynaecology for this semester. Very young, just about 28 years old or maybe 27 or 29.
anyway, i've got to cook breakfast now. but i am hesistating, should i make instant noodle? or corn flakes?
Father, i commit this day onto you, bless this day and let me see more of you today! in Jesus name I pray, Amen
a bright day
Summer is just around the corner. And even though it is spring now, the sun is shining bright each day and without proper sunglasses, you will be walking around squinting your eyes. Sunglasses is very important, not only to protect your eyes from the dangerous rays, it helps give comfort as you are walking down the street and believe it or not, it can prevent accidents too!
Sunglasses can come in many forms and style. You need to find one that not only gives you the protection that your eyes need, but also something that will suite your face to make you look beautiful. Now a new site that gives you guarantee as you purchase their sunglasses. Not only that, you also will receive a great deal when you buy 2 pairs and you get one free in return!
Sunglasses can come in many forms and style. You need to find one that not only gives you the protection that your eyes need, but also something that will suite your face to make you look beautiful. Now a new site that gives you guarantee as you purchase their sunglasses. Not only that, you also will receive a great deal when you buy 2 pairs and you get one free in return!
Sunday 6 April 2008
back
he's back.
he looks skinnier than when he left.
i dont know what to say...sometimes, without words is a way of comfort! Seriously, i am not good with these kind of things. the first time i have to face this was in form 4, Jiun's dad left to be with God. And I learn to be there for her, to support and just lend a hand whenever she needs it. That is what friends are supposed to be!
May God gives him the strength to face each day!
he looks skinnier than when he left.
i dont know what to say...sometimes, without words is a way of comfort! Seriously, i am not good with these kind of things. the first time i have to face this was in form 4, Jiun's dad left to be with God. And I learn to be there for her, to support and just lend a hand whenever she needs it. That is what friends are supposed to be!
May God gives him the strength to face each day!
tactical gears
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Thursday 3 April 2008
daily report
argh, she's acting so wierd again! i really feel like i should confront her! argh!
anyway, other than that, need to study about renal failure and pyelonephritis. kinda tired sutdying..this week has been a very heavy week. time passes so fast. tmr is friday! i dont know how to make the time slow down!!!
he's coming back this weekend. hope things dont change....
anyway, other than that, need to study about renal failure and pyelonephritis. kinda tired sutdying..this week has been a very heavy week. time passes so fast. tmr is friday! i dont know how to make the time slow down!!!
he's coming back this weekend. hope things dont change....
Monday 31 March 2008
no regrets
As some might notice, i've deleted some posts that i wrote a few days ago. not because i have something to hide but i just realised that it's no point having negetive stuff in my blog if my purpose of the blog is to serve God!
i really want to thank those that has given me encouragements by commenting and asking me to take care and not give up...and the hugs....etc. THANK YOU!
for the past week or so, i really had a lot in my mind, choices to weigh, cost to count and decisions to make. and yesterday, in Holy Ghost meeting, i was really crying out to God for asnwers. I didnt tell anyone..i just went, seeking for asnwers. the service started and the leader was praying and he just said, God has answers for you. if you are here today with questions, God is going to answer you! And more of course. I felt the whole service, God was speaking to me, reconfirming His love for me! I left, not 100% changed but at least I know I am getting my asnwers soon!
and this morning, when i woke up, i knew and i knew in my heart and mind that it's going to be different. I planned my day ahead but God directed my path.
A man’s heart plans his way,
But the LORD directs his steps (Proverbs 16:9)
Cut the long story short, I got my answers and direction from God Himself!
Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. Matt 7:7
God is just so amazing and awesome and wonderful!
Life without God is really meaningless. You can search for so many things to fill the emptiness in your heart....and do things you think will make you whole. But nothing, NOTHING can be compared with having God in your life.
Whom have I in heaven but You?
And there is none upon earth that I desire besides You.
My flesh and my heart fail;
But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. ( Psalm73-25-26)
I've gone one whole round and back to God. ahaha..it's really funny. I thought life can be more without God. I thought that life would be more fun without God. How dumb! Wasted a whole week!!! Life cannot ever be better without God. It's meaningless without God. Even if you gain the whole world but you dont have Jesus in your life, you are missing your whole life.
No matter how far I've gone...I really thank God that His love is unfailing and He stil welcomes me back with open arms!
Someone once said, even if you've lost grip of God, God will never never lost grip on you! God is faithful! God will always be faithful, even when we are not. And if we are faithful, we finds God even more faithful.
I dont know how to express it....no words to describe how great is His love for us! You just got to experience it for yourself!
p/s : daylight saving begins today! meaning i'm lossing 1 hour!! gtg sleep!!!
i really want to thank those that has given me encouragements by commenting and asking me to take care and not give up...and the hugs....etc. THANK YOU!
for the past week or so, i really had a lot in my mind, choices to weigh, cost to count and decisions to make. and yesterday, in Holy Ghost meeting, i was really crying out to God for asnwers. I didnt tell anyone..i just went, seeking for asnwers. the service started and the leader was praying and he just said, God has answers for you. if you are here today with questions, God is going to answer you! And more of course. I felt the whole service, God was speaking to me, reconfirming His love for me! I left, not 100% changed but at least I know I am getting my asnwers soon!
and this morning, when i woke up, i knew and i knew in my heart and mind that it's going to be different. I planned my day ahead but God directed my path.
A man’s heart plans his way,
But the LORD directs his steps (Proverbs 16:9)
Cut the long story short, I got my answers and direction from God Himself!
Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. Matt 7:7
God is just so amazing and awesome and wonderful!
Life without God is really meaningless. You can search for so many things to fill the emptiness in your heart....and do things you think will make you whole. But nothing, NOTHING can be compared with having God in your life.
Whom have I in heaven but You?
And there is none upon earth that I desire besides You.
My flesh and my heart fail;
But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. ( Psalm73-25-26)
I've gone one whole round and back to God. ahaha..it's really funny. I thought life can be more without God. I thought that life would be more fun without God. How dumb! Wasted a whole week!!! Life cannot ever be better without God. It's meaningless without God. Even if you gain the whole world but you dont have Jesus in your life, you are missing your whole life.
No matter how far I've gone...I really thank God that His love is unfailing and He stil welcomes me back with open arms!
Someone once said, even if you've lost grip of God, God will never never lost grip on you! God is faithful! God will always be faithful, even when we are not. And if we are faithful, we finds God even more faithful.
I dont know how to express it....no words to describe how great is His love for us! You just got to experience it for yourself!
p/s : daylight saving begins today! meaning i'm lossing 1 hour!! gtg sleep!!!
Saturday 22 March 2008
regrets
a sms reads that he is sad that his father couldnt see him graduate.
i think it is very unfair for a child to lost a parent or both parents at a young age. when i mean young, means that the child is not yet married or have his or her own family. it is very cruel to leave the kids without seeing them through university or get married.
but i know for a fact that if this parent was given a choice, he or she will not want to leave the child too. there is no parent that does not want to see their kids grow up, see their kids finish school and have their first pay check or get married and have kids. it is because there wasnt any choice that they have to leave..and often those that are left on earth always is comforted that God loves them more that He took them to be with Him.
so start living life without regrets and love and care for those around you before it is too late.
i think it is very unfair for a child to lost a parent or both parents at a young age. when i mean young, means that the child is not yet married or have his or her own family. it is very cruel to leave the kids without seeing them through university or get married.
but i know for a fact that if this parent was given a choice, he or she will not want to leave the child too. there is no parent that does not want to see their kids grow up, see their kids finish school and have their first pay check or get married and have kids. it is because there wasnt any choice that they have to leave..and often those that are left on earth always is comforted that God loves them more that He took them to be with Him.
so start living life without regrets and love and care for those around you before it is too late.
answered prayer
i was asking God, why why why did he allow these things to happen. it doesnt matter if it's our love ones leaving us or be it getting bad results in exams or being dump by boyfriend or break up with girlfriend. if anything bad happens, we ask God - WHY...why did he allow it to happen. and most of them time...well, all of the time, we just blame it all onto God.
needless to say, i too am like tat. anything that happened --> God why! why!! Instead of asking, I sort of blame everything to Him.
And finally today, someone told me....in anything, good or bad, joy or mourning....instead of asking God why, ask God what can I learn from this??
if i have a burden in my heart, something that is troubling me, instead of holding it to myself and keep asking God why is this happening, pray and commit everything onto God. God cannot move if we hold the things back. But if we pray, God is able to work in the midst of any circumstances.
And to always always remember, His love is unfailing!!! His love is never ending. I was praying last night and asking why why why but I keep getting this in my head 'my love is unfailing'. Little did I know, it was God reassuring His love. And the verse below, I got it a day before and it was like a puzzle falling into place - all these while, I had the asnwer. His love is unfailing!
Though the mountains be shaken
and the hills be removed,
yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken
nor my covenant of peace be removed,”
says the LORD, who has compassion on you (isaiah 54:10)
No matter what happened to us, God's love does not change. it is the same when He sent Jesus on the cross to die for our sins, His love is the same when He created us...and His love will always be the same. Even though we might lost grip of His love for us, He'll never ever lost grip of you. That is for sure.
needless to say, i too am like tat. anything that happened --> God why! why!! Instead of asking, I sort of blame everything to Him.
And finally today, someone told me....in anything, good or bad, joy or mourning....instead of asking God why, ask God what can I learn from this??
if i have a burden in my heart, something that is troubling me, instead of holding it to myself and keep asking God why is this happening, pray and commit everything onto God. God cannot move if we hold the things back. But if we pray, God is able to work in the midst of any circumstances.
And to always always remember, His love is unfailing!!! His love is never ending. I was praying last night and asking why why why but I keep getting this in my head 'my love is unfailing'. Little did I know, it was God reassuring His love. And the verse below, I got it a day before and it was like a puzzle falling into place - all these while, I had the asnwer. His love is unfailing!
Though the mountains be shaken
and the hills be removed,
yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken
nor my covenant of peace be removed,”
says the LORD, who has compassion on you (isaiah 54:10)
No matter what happened to us, God's love does not change. it is the same when He sent Jesus on the cross to die for our sins, His love is the same when He created us...and His love will always be the same. Even though we might lost grip of His love for us, He'll never ever lost grip of you. That is for sure.
Friday 21 March 2008
let it be a nightmare
waking up in the middle of the night,
i wish with my whole heart that all these is a nightmare.
that as i wake up, everything will return to normal.
i'm sorry, Eddy, that your dad have to leave early to be with the Lord. But be comforted because he is now with God.
i wish with my whole heart that all these is a nightmare.
that as i wake up, everything will return to normal.
i'm sorry, Eddy, that your dad have to leave early to be with the Lord. But be comforted because he is now with God.
Thursday 20 March 2008
Wednesday 19 March 2008
lost, again
i am very confused, alone and lost.
i dont know what should be my piority. what i should be doing.
i dont know what my stand is suppose to be.....where do i stand??
everyone is crazily writing posts and earning so much and i am so behind. i dont like the idea of being so crazy and going after money...am i losing out??
=(
i dont know what should be my piority. what i should be doing.
i dont know what my stand is suppose to be.....where do i stand??
everyone is crazily writing posts and earning so much and i am so behind. i dont like the idea of being so crazy and going after money...am i losing out??
=(
Tuesday 18 March 2008
tired
not feeling very well for the past few days...could be spiritually dry that caused it or mayb attack..or maybe just caught cold!
everything is ok....time is moving faster than i can grasp....each day is passing by so fast that i really need to sit down and stop time for a moment...jsut to reflect what has been going on, what i want to do and what i am expecting.
missing home terribly!!!
=((
everything is ok....time is moving faster than i can grasp....each day is passing by so fast that i really need to sit down and stop time for a moment...jsut to reflect what has been going on, what i want to do and what i am expecting.
missing home terribly!!!
=((
Friday 14 March 2008
a picture from the past
well, this isnt really a picture from the past, just someone from the past.
it's been 10 years since i first heard about him. 10 years!!! a decade d!!! and when i tried to google him, i manage to find this...wow...he has changed alot!!!
from a young, immature and kinda girly to this....
a very cool transformation isnt it? very good looking!!! stil melts my heart!!!! ahahaha.....
Wednesday 12 March 2008
My God, My Love
everyday i wake up with a wet pillow
because last night tears wet my whole face
thinking that i must face all these pain and suffering
i close my eyes and wonder when it will end.
this pain and heartache
but You appeared, giving me hope
You healed my hurt and gave me a new meaning
You are my Lord, my God.
and I know you love me.
and I worship You alone!
because last night tears wet my whole face
thinking that i must face all these pain and suffering
i close my eyes and wonder when it will end.
this pain and heartache
but You appeared, giving me hope
You healed my hurt and gave me a new meaning
You are my Lord, my God.
and I know you love me.
and I worship You alone!
increasing the traffic
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Tuesday 11 March 2008
11A1
congratulatiosn to sanpit!
11a1. that is ALOT!! wow..really praise God for that!!
^^
realy something to be proud abt!
11a1. that is ALOT!! wow..really praise God for that!!
^^
realy something to be proud abt!
^^
droped my swatch and its heartbeat stopped.
prayed over it..and now is standing in faith for it to be restored!
God's word will not go back to Him void but will accomplished what it has sent for and it shall prosper.
Deu 28 - the blessings follow those that obey the Lord.
I'm sure God will bring it back to me!!!
prayed over it..and now is standing in faith for it to be restored!
God's word will not go back to Him void but will accomplished what it has sent for and it shall prosper.
Deu 28 - the blessings follow those that obey the Lord.
I'm sure God will bring it back to me!!!
Monday 10 March 2008
piorities
i'm not giving up writing to be paid...i just need some time off..it's taking too much of my time and attention.
my God is getting jealous! ahaha...i know it's coming up sooner or later..and no matter what it is, i am wiser to know it is God that i need...nothing can ever be compared to God!
my God is getting jealous! ahaha...i know it's coming up sooner or later..and no matter what it is, i am wiser to know it is God that i need...nothing can ever be compared to God!
piorities
i'm not giving up writing to be paid...i just need some time off..it's taking too much of my time and attention.
my God is getting jealous! ahaha...i know it's coming up sooner or later..and no matter what it is, i am wiser to know it is God that i need...nothing can ever be compared to God!
my God is getting jealous! ahaha...i know it's coming up sooner or later..and no matter what it is, i am wiser to know it is God that i need...nothing can ever be compared to God!
Friday 7 March 2008
happy birthday
it's my 23rd birthday today. last night i slept early, not to escape the fact they my friends are coming to celebrate. i was expecting them but i was too tired. i guess it's ok. it's the thought that counts!
during my sleep, there were sms coming in wishing me happy birthday til my inbox was full. of coure it wasnt as much as you think it is...because the max my inbox can contain is 24-25sms. anyway, i was in like a half awake half dreaming state and i sort of dreamt but also thought it was real that he smsed me and say that he loved me. haha..funny isnt it? and for that few hours, i really was very happy...i dreamt that he told me that he cared....
when i woke up, i realised it was all a dream. did i really wanted him to send me the sms? i thought i was over the whole thing....well, it was a sweet dream. in reality...i know for sure, i'm over it. no more strings attached!
during my sleep, there were sms coming in wishing me happy birthday til my inbox was full. of coure it wasnt as much as you think it is...because the max my inbox can contain is 24-25sms. anyway, i was in like a half awake half dreaming state and i sort of dreamt but also thought it was real that he smsed me and say that he loved me. haha..funny isnt it? and for that few hours, i really was very happy...i dreamt that he told me that he cared....
when i woke up, i realised it was all a dream. did i really wanted him to send me the sms? i thought i was over the whole thing....well, it was a sweet dream. in reality...i know for sure, i'm over it. no more strings attached!
Thursday 6 March 2008
holding hands
i saw them holding hands from a far. i cannot deny that i was a bit shocked...but it suddenly hit me.....is that a sin? is it wrong to hold hands??
who doest want to be in love?
dont be quick to judge!!
who doest want to be in love?
dont be quick to judge!!
Tuesday 4 March 2008
n-v
most of my groupmates are earning lots in blogging! i really dont know how they can do that...and their accounts are bursting!!!
as for me...my earning are drying up soon...as in..no more incoming money...
well, jsut got to keep it up!! gambate!!
this n-v is a good one..i've got to remind myself..not to be greedy!!
my source is not ppp or paypal..it's God!
as for me...my earning are drying up soon...as in..no more incoming money...
well, jsut got to keep it up!! gambate!!
this n-v is a good one..i've got to remind myself..not to be greedy!!
my source is not ppp or paypal..it's God!
Monday 3 March 2008
singing
i loved to sing...and i love praising God. Singing for Him. I thought it didnt matter, if i dont know how to sing...if i cant sing the right key...as long as i want to praise Him, that is all that matters...
but it has been nearly 8 years since the day that i learnt otherwise. i couldnt be a backup singer because i cant sing. i am tone deaf. i thought it didnt matter because all that matter is the heart...but now, they are looking at my ability. since then, i dare not join worship team or choir or carolling.
God, i hope u understand....all i want to do is to please you, to worship you!
but it has been nearly 8 years since the day that i learnt otherwise. i couldnt be a backup singer because i cant sing. i am tone deaf. i thought it didnt matter because all that matter is the heart...but now, they are looking at my ability. since then, i dare not join worship team or choir or carolling.
God, i hope u understand....all i want to do is to please you, to worship you!
monday
wah....i'm so full...bloated! had a great dinner...even tho it's jsut soup..
today, i'm going to teach in cg meeting. i really pray and ask God to give me wisdom and boldness to speak!
ok..gtg get ready now..
i got to remind myself...eat to enjoy, not be bloated!
today, i'm going to teach in cg meeting. i really pray and ask God to give me wisdom and boldness to speak!
ok..gtg get ready now..
i got to remind myself...eat to enjoy, not be bloated!
Saturday 1 March 2008
election day for Russia
today is the election day for russia, to determine who is the next president...
it's a big day for some people but as for me, and how i see it, the streets are quite and there arent many people..,i wonder if there are anyone coming out to vote....
^^
i got a beautiful bday gift - the blouse i've wanted for months!!! yay! thank you kl and colley!
it's a big day for some people but as for me, and how i see it, the streets are quite and there arent many people..,i wonder if there are anyone coming out to vote....
^^
i got a beautiful bday gift - the blouse i've wanted for months!!! yay! thank you kl and colley!
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Friday 29 February 2008
friday
nearly burst out that i had a secret blog...hey, it's not a secret..its just where i want my private life to be....and not to be shown to the whole group.....
most of my emotions are here...maybe some fantasy?? nah....real life, k! hahahah
now i'm feeling a bit sleepy....oh well..better sleep soon!
just want to blog abt my feelings now...another 1 week = 7 days, my birthday. 23rd birthday. i'm not expecting much from friends..it'l be sweet of them to remember my bday tho! ekekekke...but i wont expect much....i know i'm the kind of person they try not to affliate with! ahha..am i too bossy?? =(
well, my own bday gift i want is...a bf...ahahha! yea, so, God, please.....
most of my emotions are here...maybe some fantasy?? nah....real life, k! hahahah
now i'm feeling a bit sleepy....oh well..better sleep soon!
just want to blog abt my feelings now...another 1 week = 7 days, my birthday. 23rd birthday. i'm not expecting much from friends..it'l be sweet of them to remember my bday tho! ekekekke...but i wont expect much....i know i'm the kind of person they try not to affliate with! ahha..am i too bossy?? =(
well, my own bday gift i want is...a bf...ahahha! yea, so, God, please.....
Thursday 28 February 2008
secrets
i accidentally burst out tat i have another blog.....i guess they'll be more curious but i cant care less
=p
i just need some privacy and some place i can let my mind fly! kekekekkeke...
had discipleship today and i guess God is teaching me as i share..AGAIN!!! because i hardly want to listen, He's using my own sharing to get my attention! totally superb!!
Lord, I really love you...
=p
i just need some privacy and some place i can let my mind fly! kekekekkeke...
had discipleship today and i guess God is teaching me as i share..AGAIN!!! because i hardly want to listen, He's using my own sharing to get my attention! totally superb!!
Lord, I really love you...
Tuesday 26 February 2008
a day to remember
got a new medical series - team medical dragon 2.
really cool..it's very up to beat with lots of latest heart surgery techinques..if i'm into it, i will need do research and read more abt them..
one of the thing i've learnt is Batista Operation and also Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndroome. really cool..i definately will need to read abt it!!
ok..need to spend time with God too..cannot diet. ahhaa..
faith class was superb today...what pastor edgar shared was really encouraging and yup..which reminds me, i better go and read the Word now!
really cool..it's very up to beat with lots of latest heart surgery techinques..if i'm into it, i will need do research and read more abt them..
one of the thing i've learnt is Batista Operation and also Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndroome. really cool..i definately will need to read abt it!!
ok..need to spend time with God too..cannot diet. ahhaa..
faith class was superb today...what pastor edgar shared was really encouraging and yup..which reminds me, i better go and read the Word now!
devastated
the blouse that i have been eyeeing for more than 6 months...and i totally feel it in my heart that i will own it...or have it..and guess what....i went to the shop today..and it was closed!!
i dont know what to think! it's closed! yesterday the shop was stil opened and it worst of all, it was the cheapest price...from 1000++ til 300+ now...how much more can i ask for?? and they had to close the shop til end of the week! first thing this saturday, i'm going to have a look!
another thing to consider, doing facial....i dont know..should i? should i not?
if i'm getting the blouse..,i'd pass on the facial!
i not only saw the blouse, there is this brown jacket that i saw...totally love it! keeping my fingers crossed that it'll be there on saturday! for the record, it was around 2000+ and now for the sale, it's abt 700+. not bad...kinda pricy tho....
i dont know what to think! it's closed! yesterday the shop was stil opened and it worst of all, it was the cheapest price...from 1000++ til 300+ now...how much more can i ask for?? and they had to close the shop til end of the week! first thing this saturday, i'm going to have a look!
another thing to consider, doing facial....i dont know..should i? should i not?
if i'm getting the blouse..,i'd pass on the facial!
i not only saw the blouse, there is this brown jacket that i saw...totally love it! keeping my fingers crossed that it'll be there on saturday! for the record, it was around 2000+ and now for the sale, it's abt 700+. not bad...kinda pricy tho....
Monday 25 February 2008
a new reason to blog
A day in history, I've got to record this down! I am not going miss this!!
A friend introduced this to me, a couple of months ago and I didnt think I would get it. I'm not new in the world of blogging and sometimes, the more you blog, the more you run out of ideas. And then, there are times when it seems like there is no motivation to blog. When this happens, we just need a boost! Something to give us a new reason why blogging is fun and that we should continue it. And guess what, I've found mine!
I've just signed up with a bloging advertiser. I've heard so much about blogging and and this idea that you get paid to blog. Isn't that fantastic? Not only you can write the things you want and you are being paid! Wow, it's like killing two birds with one stone!
Honestly, I cant wait to start. It's not going to be easy in the first few months as I need to polish my writings and also read more and spend more time on the net. Just to get familiar with the sites I'll be writing for. I'm determined to make this a good one, not to take things for granted and make the best out of all the post I'm going to write!
So, all the best for me and wish me a great time blogging!
A friend introduced this to me, a couple of months ago and I didnt think I would get it. I'm not new in the world of blogging and sometimes, the more you blog, the more you run out of ideas. And then, there are times when it seems like there is no motivation to blog. When this happens, we just need a boost! Something to give us a new reason why blogging is fun and that we should continue it. And guess what, I've found mine!
I've just signed up with a bloging advertiser. I've heard so much about blogging and and this idea that you get paid to blog. Isn't that fantastic? Not only you can write the things you want and you are being paid! Wow, it's like killing two birds with one stone!
Honestly, I cant wait to start. It's not going to be easy in the first few months as I need to polish my writings and also read more and spend more time on the net. Just to get familiar with the sites I'll be writing for. I'm determined to make this a good one, not to take things for granted and make the best out of all the post I'm going to write!
So, all the best for me and wish me a great time blogging!
first cell meeting for this sem
wonderful....
we had recommittment and i didnt kno it was tat serious until i really told God from my heart, I want to do this!!!
it is just so amazing when God is working and we allow God to move..intead of thinking we are super smart or anything...we let the greater one move and we'll begin to see that God is able to move and do so much more than we can ever ever imagine or dream! this is something i've got to learn...to let God be in control!
Lord, lead me and guide me, and I want to serve u all the days of my life!
we had recommittment and i didnt kno it was tat serious until i really told God from my heart, I want to do this!!!
it is just so amazing when God is working and we allow God to move..intead of thinking we are super smart or anything...we let the greater one move and we'll begin to see that God is able to move and do so much more than we can ever ever imagine or dream! this is something i've got to learn...to let God be in control!
Lord, lead me and guide me, and I want to serve u all the days of my life!
back to normal
well, i guess i'm back to normal, my naive self!
it's great to be thinking good of all things...at least i expect the best out of everyone...
is it childish? oh well...
it's great to be thinking good of all things...at least i expect the best out of everyone...
is it childish? oh well...
beautiful day
starting the week with blogging, how abt that, eh?
a beautiful day outside....weather is superb....but it's wet! oh well, nothing can be that perfect too!
lots to do today...and this week!
classes - tropical biology
meetings - pre-shepherds' meeting, shepherds meeting, cell groups, faith teaching classes
lots lots lots and becoz it's lots it's going to be super fun!!
a beautiful day outside....weather is superb....but it's wet! oh well, nothing can be that perfect too!
lots to do today...and this week!
classes - tropical biology
meetings - pre-shepherds' meeting, shepherds meeting, cell groups, faith teaching classes
lots lots lots and becoz it's lots it's going to be super fun!!
Friday 22 February 2008
worship service
today's worship service was great....even tho most of the time i was day dreaming. i really find that it's a place where i can dream and know that God is looking down at me...and also the peace that surrounds me...it's wonderful!
it's as if God is giving me ideas of what to do this coming summer break. and i feel that ever single step that I take, it'll be of God's!
i plan to go to genting, or melaka! wow, the idea of that....super! and maybe i can ask my parents and sisters to fly to KL and we'll have a family weekend in genting! isnt that superb!??!!??!
Lord, use me that I might bring glory to your name!
it's as if God is giving me ideas of what to do this coming summer break. and i feel that ever single step that I take, it'll be of God's!
i plan to go to genting, or melaka! wow, the idea of that....super! and maybe i can ask my parents and sisters to fly to KL and we'll have a family weekend in genting! isnt that superb!??!!??!
Lord, use me that I might bring glory to your name!
Tuesday 19 February 2008
a new name
i've got myself a new name....a new name is good for a new start!
Carmine
=)
may God blesses me to use this name! kekekeke
Carmine
=)
may God blesses me to use this name! kekekeke
Monday 18 February 2008
changed
i really have changed...i can feel it..
who can i tell?!?!?
i dont know what made me this way..what changed me...
oh well..i've found a new name - carmine!
=p
i am no longer the girl i used to be....no longer naive and easily fooled!
who can i tell?!?!?
i dont know what made me this way..what changed me...
oh well..i've found a new name - carmine!
=p
i am no longer the girl i used to be....no longer naive and easily fooled!
Sunday 17 February 2008
i've changed
i sense it, the change in me!
i've changed....i am no longer who i used to be...
it is a good change tho, i feel as if i'm viewing things in a different way now. no longer the little naive girl who thinks everyone is good.
oh well... deep down in me, a new me has be awaken!
i've changed....i am no longer who i used to be...
it is a good change tho, i feel as if i'm viewing things in a different way now. no longer the little naive girl who thinks everyone is good.
oh well... deep down in me, a new me has be awaken!
Wednesday 13 February 2008
Valentine's Day
tmr is valentine's day. i dont know why this year, my heart hurts.
mayb its PMS again.
i want someone to love me too! someone to hold my hands, talk to me, hug me, smell my hair, care for me.....
i want to be in love!
ahhaa....i want someone to care for me! kekekekek..is that even too much to ask?
mayb its PMS again.
i want someone to love me too! someone to hold my hands, talk to me, hug me, smell my hair, care for me.....
i want to be in love!
ahhaa....i want someone to care for me! kekekekek..is that even too much to ask?
Tuesday 12 February 2008
back
i'm back from holidays.....everything was great! really saw God's protection! eventho i was told with stories about how bad people will be and how dangerous....i had to admit, i had fear..but God proves Himself to be faithful!!
praise the Lord!!
valentine coming up...any plans? nah!! last year, the year before, and before, and before i would think of someone but now, no one expect God! really glad that i dont feel anything for him anymore! kekekek
anyway, now i am writing this, i've decided...i'll celebrate it with my love, God!! yay!!!
praise the Lord!!
valentine coming up...any plans? nah!! last year, the year before, and before, and before i would think of someone but now, no one expect God! really glad that i dont feel anything for him anymore! kekekek
anyway, now i am writing this, i've decided...i'll celebrate it with my love, God!! yay!!!
Saturday 26 January 2008
tired
i'm so tired...
so be it if there isnt anyone that cares for me enough....well, maybe superficially...but i want a deeper relationship..and there isnt anyone...honestly, there isnt anyone!
i try to treat ppl with my heart, but all i get...... just my heart broken into pieces!
so be it if there isnt anyone that cares for me enough....well, maybe superficially...but i want a deeper relationship..and there isnt anyone...honestly, there isnt anyone!
i try to treat ppl with my heart, but all i get...... just my heart broken into pieces!
Tuesday 22 January 2008
feelings
my heart hearts.....right now..it aches....so painful....
i miss mama!!
i never really blogged abt it...but i really miss mama!
i miss you mama!! i really really misses you!!!
i miss mama!!
i never really blogged abt it...but i really miss mama!
i miss you mama!! i really really misses you!!!
God is so amazing
wah...God is so amazing...
i was feeling so dry - stressed out - really lost..and i desperately need to spend some time alone with God. So, i went to CO and really just sit there pray and enjoy the presence of God...after abt 1 hour,feel totally recharged!
honestly, it's not enuff but got to come back to hostel..need to eat, bath and study! i wish i have more time!
I really miss God!!
i was feeling so dry - stressed out - really lost..and i desperately need to spend some time alone with God. So, i went to CO and really just sit there pray and enjoy the presence of God...after abt 1 hour,feel totally recharged!
honestly, it's not enuff but got to come back to hostel..need to eat, bath and study! i wish i have more time!
I really miss God!!
Monday 21 January 2008
air
i need air...
and when i turn to the bible - God said - Ask of Me, and I will give You the ations for Your inheritance, And the ends of the earth for Your possession! Psalms 2:8
and when i turn to the bible - God said - Ask of Me, and I will give You the ations for Your inheritance, And the ends of the earth for Your possession! Psalms 2:8
Sunday 20 January 2008
a new day
yay...a new day..aha...
woke up realy good today...had a great time in intern's meeting! really really feel like God loves me. He's perfect! And i want to be in the position where He wants me too.
i cant change the fact that he dont love me..or many never ever did love me before and before this it was just flirting. and the fact he's with my best friend. sometimes, i feel that she deserves someone better...much better but is that really for her or becoz i cant stand seeing them together. i know she's starting to haf a soft spot for him...it's sooner or later before she ends up with him. the way she treats him, hug, hit, scold, talk, its as if the world evolve only around them!
i cant change that fact.
woke up realy good today...had a great time in intern's meeting! really really feel like God loves me. He's perfect! And i want to be in the position where He wants me too.
i cant change the fact that he dont love me..or many never ever did love me before and before this it was just flirting. and the fact he's with my best friend. sometimes, i feel that she deserves someone better...much better but is that really for her or becoz i cant stand seeing them together. i know she's starting to haf a soft spot for him...it's sooner or later before she ends up with him. the way she treats him, hug, hit, scold, talk, its as if the world evolve only around them!
i cant change that fact.
Saturday 19 January 2008
runaway
i feel like running away....run far far away that i dont need to face the people i have to face....not that i dont like them or anything...sometimes, it just hurt the healing wound and it gets worst.
but Sam said something really great - from God - His grace is sufficient for me, and His strength is made perfect in my weakness!
thank you, Jesus!
but Sam said something really great - from God - His grace is sufficient for me, and His strength is made perfect in my weakness!
thank you, Jesus!
change
i am considering to change this blog name...but i dont want it to be too gloomy....no point confessing all the bad things!!kekeke...so, i guess, it'll stick to this blog name - journey of faith!
well, i saw them together again....today. closer then ever. he sings her a love song. and in his eyes....it's only her!
well, i saw them together again....today. closer then ever. he sings her a love song. and in his eyes....it's only her!
Wednesday 16 January 2008
dealing with myself
no updates..meaning i've been well...aha...having a great time with God..lots of encounters....just in short - God is wonderful!! He's amazing!! He's so so amazing... His love is so amazing...when it sweeps you...makes you feel like there is nothing in this world that matters but Him!!
hunger for His love, and He'll fill your heart with more love!!
had a small fight with a girlfriend...maybe not small...can be considered as big since i hardly have any fights....i dont know if she considers this as a fight tho...but didnt speak with her for 3 days....and God is really dealing with me about this...i mean...LOVE. God is love...and Love dont fight! aha...so...yea..slowly la... ^^
maybe it's just a the stress in this exam season...
anyway...LOVE!
hunger for His love, and He'll fill your heart with more love!!
had a small fight with a girlfriend...maybe not small...can be considered as big since i hardly have any fights....i dont know if she considers this as a fight tho...but didnt speak with her for 3 days....and God is really dealing with me about this...i mean...LOVE. God is love...and Love dont fight! aha...so...yea..slowly la... ^^
maybe it's just a the stress in this exam season...
anyway...LOVE!
Saturday 5 January 2008
people
people can be selfish....just looking out for themselves...
what do you do when you meet one? should u continue to care for them? but what if they are just out there to 'eat' you up?
i dont want to look at her that way...but everything she does, it just seems to be about her.....all her motives points to herself...
what do you do when you meet one? should u continue to care for them? but what if they are just out there to 'eat' you up?
i dont want to look at her that way...but everything she does, it just seems to be about her.....all her motives points to herself...
Tuesday 1 January 2008
lost? nah....
suddenly, a rush of anxiety sweep over me..and i rememberd that God says...do not be anxious in His words, and also come to me those that are burdened and heavy hearted and I will give rest.
Lord, I lift this burden onto you. I know that You are my peace - Jehovah Shalom.
I love you, Lord!
Lord, I lift this burden onto you. I know that You are my peace - Jehovah Shalom.
I love you, Lord!
a new start
yay! it's a new year...a new year gives a new purpose and reasons to start doing something and stop doing something too!
well, i want more of God this year...to really live all out for HIM!
i love you, God!!!
well, i want more of God this year...to really live all out for HIM!
i love you, God!!!
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