no regrets

As some might notice, i've deleted some posts that i wrote a few days ago. not because i have something to hide but i just realised that it's no point having negetive stuff in my blog if my purpose of the blog is to serve God!

i really want to thank those that has given me encouragements by commenting and asking me to take care and not give up...and the hugs....etc. THANK YOU!

for the past week or so, i really had a lot in my mind, choices to weigh, cost to count and decisions to make. and yesterday, in Holy Ghost meeting, i was really crying out to God for asnwers. I didnt tell anyone..i just went, seeking for asnwers. the service started and the leader was praying and he just said, God has answers for you. if you are here today with questions, God is going to answer you! And more of course. I felt the whole service, God was speaking to me, reconfirming His love for me! I left, not 100% changed but at least I know I am getting my asnwers soon!

and this morning, when i woke up, i knew and i knew in my heart and mind that it's going to be different. I planned my day ahead but God directed my path.

A man’s heart plans his way,
But the LORD directs his steps (Proverbs 16:9)

Cut the long story short, I got my answers and direction from God Himself!

Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. Matt 7:7

God is just so amazing and awesome and wonderful!

Life without God is really meaningless. You can search for so many things to fill the emptiness in your heart....and do things you think will make you whole. But nothing, NOTHING can be compared with having God in your life.

Whom have I in heaven but You?
And there is none upon earth that I desire besides You.
My flesh and my heart fail;
But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. ( Psalm73-25-26)

I've gone one whole round and back to God. ahaha..it's really funny. I thought life can be more without God. I thought that life would be more fun without God. How dumb! Wasted a whole week!!! Life cannot ever be better without God. It's meaningless without God. Even if you gain the whole world but you dont have Jesus in your life, you are missing your whole life.

No matter how far I've gone...I really thank God that His love is unfailing and He stil welcomes me back with open arms!

Someone once said, even if you've lost grip of God, God will never never lost grip on you! God is faithful! God will always be faithful, even when we are not. And if we are faithful, we finds God even more faithful.

I dont know how to express it....no words to describe how great is His love for us! You just got to experience it for yourself!

p/s : daylight saving begins today! meaning i'm lossing 1 hour!! gtg sleep!!!

regrets

a sms reads that he is sad that his father couldnt see him graduate.

i think it is very unfair for a child to lost a parent or both parents at a young age. when i mean young, means that the child is not yet married or have his or her own family. it is very cruel to leave the kids without seeing them through university or get married.

but i know for a fact that if this parent was given a choice, he or she will not want to leave the child too. there is no parent that does not want to see their kids grow up, see their kids finish school and have their first pay check or get married and have kids. it is because there wasnt any choice that they have to leave..and often those that are left on earth always is comforted that God loves them more that He took them to be with Him.

so start living life without regrets and love and care for those around you before it is too late.

answered prayer

i was asking God, why why why did he allow these things to happen. it doesnt matter if it's our love ones leaving us or be it getting bad results in exams or being dump by boyfriend or break up with girlfriend. if anything bad happens, we ask God - WHY...why did he allow it to happen. and most of them time...well, all of the time, we just blame it all onto God.

needless to say, i too am like tat. anything that happened --> God why! why!! Instead of asking, I sort of blame everything to Him.

And finally today, someone told me....in anything, good or bad, joy or mourning....instead of asking God why, ask God what can I learn from this??

if i have a burden in my heart, something that is troubling me, instead of holding it to myself and keep asking God why is this happening, pray and commit everything onto God. God cannot move if we hold the things back. But if we pray, God is able to work in the midst of any circumstances.

And to always always remember, His love is unfailing!!! His love is never ending. I was praying last night and asking why why why but I keep getting this in my head 'my love is unfailing'. Little did I know, it was God reassuring His love. And the verse below, I got it a day before and it was like a puzzle falling into place - all these while, I had the asnwer. His love is unfailing!

Though the mountains be shaken
and the hills be removed,
yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken
nor my covenant of peace be removed,”
says the LORD, who has compassion on you (isaiah 54:10)

No matter what happened to us, God's love does not change. it is the same when He sent Jesus on the cross to die for our sins, His love is the same when He created us...and His love will always be the same. Even though we might lost grip of His love for us, He'll never ever lost grip of you. That is for sure.

let it be a nightmare

waking up in the middle of the night,
i wish with my whole heart that all these is a nightmare.
that as i wake up, everything will return to normal.

i'm sorry, Eddy, that your dad have to leave early to be with the Lord. But be comforted because he is now with God.

i'm tired

i'm very tired.....

PMS again, i think!
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lost, again

i am very confused, alone and lost.

i dont know what should be my piority. what i should be doing.

i dont know what my stand is suppose to be.....where do i stand??

everyone is crazily writing posts and earning so much and i am so behind. i dont like the idea of being so crazy and going after money...am i losing out??

=(

tired

not feeling very well for the past few days...could be spiritually dry that caused it or mayb attack..or maybe just caught cold!

everything is ok....time is moving faster than i can grasp....each day is passing by so fast that i really need to sit down and stop time for a moment...jsut to reflect what has been going on, what i want to do and what i am expecting.

missing home terribly!!!

=((